I've been doing some thinking. I think I have some brain space freed up or something (yeah, as a psychologist that's a literal and highly technical description of the cognitive processes).
I love the way I create parallels between my practice on the mat and my life (I hesitate to call it practice, makes me feel presumptuous somehow) off the mat. The main one I thinking of is the way I'm scared of falling. Out of Sirsasana (headstand) and Bhuja Pindasana (arm pressure) especially, but also Bakasana (crow). I relate this to the way I am nervous of taking risks in lots of other areas of life, instead making teeny tiny increments towards things, in a painfully slow way that would really frustrate me to watch in anyone else.
I also find that process very affirming (right word? not sure) in that I keep plugging away - Bakasana in particular has become a lot 'easier', not in the sense of becoming simple, or effortless, but less stressful, much less of a big deal.
I say that I 'create' the parallels because I am very aware that I'm seeing what I am choosing to see, choosing to make links. I could choose to take Prasarita Padottanasana C (wide legged forward bend, arms linked and over my head) and Baddha Padmasana (bound lotus) as great evidence of my incredible openess, in my emotions, or to new thoughts and situations. However I don't. I don't see that, I don't choose to make that link because I don't see that in my life. Instead what I see when I'm in that forward bend and my teacher takes my hands to make contact with the floor is a combination of 'love these Doll family hamstrings' and 'practice paying off', and various other things too, but no specific links to any great openess or strength in anything other than my body.
As I type this I wonder if some people would think this negates the experience, would think that the parallels are more literal, and that tension looming up in some muscle or other is a literal manifestation of an emotional block or obstacle in life off the mat. I don't see that it is literal in that way, I see it more that it gives me the opportunity to figure some stuff out for myself, and I think it's all the more powerful/exciting/insert-superlative-here for being that way.
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